Posted by Butterfly (Greenfield, Ma) on 01/10/2013
I suspect I have aspergers syndrome-I'm very smart intellectually, but have difficulties socially and I also have bad ocd. I also have severe fibromialgia-possibly lymes, I just got tested and will know the results fairly soon. I am in constant pain esp in my neck and shoulders- under my skin; it feel gravelly and broken up and intensely painful. I have similar pain around my waist and other areas.
My sleep has become ever more terrible. I fall asleep ok, but my sleep is broken and not restful and I wake at around 4 am. I take deep sleep, an herbal formula and trazodone 125mg, also venlafaxine the generic of effexor 12.5mg for depression, and gabapentin the generic of neurontin for mood swings.
I would like to get off the drugs, but when I cut the dose I can't sleep. My doctor says it is ok for me to come off the meds, but I am scared because when I did so abruptly in the past I became really unhinged.
I also have been taking a tincture with valerian and kava kava etc, but it is not helping. I am so exhausted and napping does not help. I am kept awake by the pain and by my stomachedigestive system -it doesn't hurt but it feel like the food just sits there.
I have gas, bloating farting, constipation and then dumping, sometimes real loose and smelly other times chaulky. Sorry to be so grossly descriptive, but I thought you folks might need the details.
I don't think I am digesting my food, its like I eat and then I dont take in the nutrition, I just poop it out. It is hard to take full deep breaths-it really hurts my stomache when I breathe deeply-my stress level is thru the roof. My nasal passges are clogged.
I also have neuropathy in my legs and feet esp in my left foot. I do not have diabetis. My skin and hair are very dry an my complexion is too white and kind of yellowy which is not normal for me. I have lots of amalgam fillings in my mouth and my home seems to be making me sick, but I do not yet have the resources to move.
I have brain fog and forget stuff a lot and can't think straight. I also have depression and mood swings, extreme irritablity and and am prone to rages that feel very physcial in origin, and have ptsd, anxiety and my personality is fragmented, I have parts, but I am almost always co-concious- I am aware of what all part so me are doing.
My head is very itchy. I have arthritis, chronic fatigue candida and ibs. I get easily overwhemed and am having a very hard time functioning. I have lots of guilt over things I have done and feel out of my integrtiy. I am very very creative, but also feel very destructive, almost haunted.
At the same time, I am a poet and artist and make music and love nature and beauty. I get rather, no, extremely overwhelmed with all the information out there on holistic healing. So far I have not yet been susccessful in healing. If I could sleep well and have less pain that would be a great start.
I do not eat any sugar, flour or junk food. I would appeciate any suggestions. Thanks, butterfly